Lately I've been able to feel the difference of what just three weeks of Meltdown has done. My jeans are getting loose, my food choices are totally different and I've got more energy! Gotta love that! I'm also learning how to stop beating myself up when it comes to my size. I did that during our last Saturday's workout when we were all done. I walked around the parking lot all ticked off at myself because I used to be able to do all these exercises and 400meter runs. I used to be at the head of the pack, not the end. I ran the 800 meters in track for goodness sakes and now I gasped for air as I ran half that amount?? As I ranted to myself and cried, I finally snapped out of that self destructive nonsense. I know better than doing that! Daily, now, I am concentrating on the good things about this process and the future rather than what I used to be able to do in the past. That takes a lot of effort, but an amazing habit to learn.
Lori
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Amen Lori! I hear everything your saying. I just want to say that I can see a difference in you. I also want you to know that a lot of us have those emotions and have to fight to keep them out of our head. I really appiciate your determination and that is what it takes. You are doing so great.
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Lori,
ReplyDeleteYou are where you are. Plain and simple. The sooner you can accept that, embrace it for what it is, the sooner you will be able to change your location! It's a bit paradoxical and comes off sounding a tidge like something a Buddhist would say, but those are my words, and I'm no Buddhist!
Today, we are going to be doing the all-powerful kick-boxing, so save up some of that energy and we'll put it to good use!
Your body needs you to work it! So get to work!
-Daniel