I went to HiDef today and had a good workout. I am proud of myself that I have worked out 5 days a week for two weeks. I feel like I've gone for 0 to 100% in the last two weeks. I am glad to see everyone hanging in there and working their butts off. I think we are all winners. I do feel like this is a new lifestyle change for me. I look forward to workingout because it isn't something that I am doing by myself, I feel like I need a driving force and I'm not just talking about Robert and Kili; I am talking about YOU my friends and Robert and Kili. I felt good that I completed all of the stations in HD today and tried not to focus on me being the only one that used dumbells instead of the sandbag or the weight bar. I just tried to focus on just getting through the stations and rounds. We had a nice but small group today and I was even sent a facebook message (of encouragement) by the nice young gal that I partnered up with.
It is funny but I have a following (which makes me work harder) on facebook. I have been trying to post a little something everyday about the process and my journey. I always get such nice responces to my journaling. I have my husband and 2 great friends (Carl and Dawn W.) that have been going to sweat360 before I decided to join bootcamp. They always told me about how I would want to keep coming back if I started and they were right.
When my husband went with Carl a couple of times he decided that he wanted to do some personal training; he said that he was going to do their 2 week personal training. I knew that wouldn't be enough and let him know that I thought that he should do the 6 week course of training with Robert (I didn't know his name then). He couldn't believe that I wanted him to spend that much money. I told him he was worth it! And that it was an investment in our future. He would come home after every session with Robert beaten down, soaking wet and weining. I thought he was crazy and exaggerating. NOPE! It was all true! LOL!...... The beaten down part should be replace with "taken to the edge" instead.
Robert I am truly thankful for you and appriciate your training qualities both for Greg and myself.
Kili I am turly thankful for you and your high energy and helping to hold back my weining and negative self talk.
I appriciate everyones efforts in this class and hope that I can match that effort on a daily basis!
Good thoughts, Tracy
Friday, April 30, 2010
Thursday, April 29, 2010
My Personal Triumph! RUNNING?!?
I have to say that running was something that I always saw others doing and enjoying, BUT, I knew that it wasn't for me. I did run as a child, always slower than my friends and I hated coming in last, so at some point as a child I quit running. Now I have been told that I must run...WHAT?!? I hate running or at least that is what I have been telling myself for close to 40 years. So when told I needed to run I thought I was going to HATE the people telling me to run. So after a couple of classes that I had to run in, I decided that I was going to make myself LOVE running. What, am I crazy, wanting to love something that I love hating? So this week I have gone to the gym and the first thing that I do is get on the treadmill to...RUN! My first day it took me 13:46 to run a mile. On Wednesday it took 13:00, and today I did it in 12:34! This is crazy! I am so high from this personal challenge. I can't wait to go faster and longer. I want to run! I know that I would never be where I'm at if I didn't have the support from others and the belief that I can do things that I never thought possible. I thank everyone in the group for supporting me, including Robert and Kili. THANKS!
Terrance
Terrance
Wednesday, April 28, 2010
Self + Physical Activity = Panic
I wanted to share with the group about the above formula, which has haunted me since the 1st Grade. I remember playing in a children's soccer league - ASO - and was responsible for kicking the ball from the sideline. I went to kick it, but missed, sending my foot over and above the ball. The adults and children camped out along the field broke out in laughter, and I remember thinking to myself, "You idiot! Kick the ball! A retard could do this!" I kicked the ball on second try but quit soccer that year. When my parents asked me why, I told them I didn't want to do everything my brothers did. My father, a lawyer, accepted this reasoning as sound, and my mother only wanted me to "be happy."
When middle school rolled around, I knew that PE would be my worst hour of the day, and sure enough, I dreaded every time I had to head off to the gymnasium. Our coach - Coach Dees - was your typical middle-aged, gut-over-the-waist teacher who treated the whole of us like laundry he had to wash. A lamented task, but one that he could do yelling and blowing his whistle, rattling off comments over his mega-phone when it so pleased him. For three years, I interacted with Coach Dees, and as an awkward middle-schoolers do, I did my best to stay as far off of his radar as possible. But of course, like out in the wild, the pack soon identifies its weakest link, as Coach Dees did when our class went for its first "Run around this track here four times, and don't stop for nothing" runs.
Off I went, hoofing it as best as my burgeoning body could muster, my little dust storm of sorts forming behind me and the other kids taking up the proverbial rear. The first lap was arduous on a number of fronts, though namely I found I was cramping. My legs were in pain, and my throat was dry as a nunnery.
"Get running, Cannain," I heard him shout. His voice raised higher when saying my last name, which I tried to ignore. I nodded in acknowledgment of his command and tried again to propel myself in what seemed like a completely futile experiment in human pain. I ran and ran, the minutes going by slower and slower as I rounded the final lap. When I was finished, my splendid coach started to walk away but turned to me and said, "Everyone could see ya running like a girl." He laughed and walked away as my face turned crimsom, wanting only to run now -- far and fast away.
And in strange ways, as I have been working out, I have had these early memories surface. My early experiences with working out, the negativity I felt, and the often-external rejection I felt when engaged in physical activity. And thus, there is a sense of panic that I sometimes feel, as I near the gym or Sweat360's facilties, and I must fight to let go of that emotion. As I let go, I have been grabbing onto a new identity, one formed in strength, determination, and focus. I have begun to see myself as an athete, a hard-working one, who gives his utmost for his own benefit. And as I do this, I find my strength increasing, and with that growth, I imagine myself running by Coach Dees, running strong and fast.
- Daniel
When middle school rolled around, I knew that PE would be my worst hour of the day, and sure enough, I dreaded every time I had to head off to the gymnasium. Our coach - Coach Dees - was your typical middle-aged, gut-over-the-waist teacher who treated the whole of us like laundry he had to wash. A lamented task, but one that he could do yelling and blowing his whistle, rattling off comments over his mega-phone when it so pleased him. For three years, I interacted with Coach Dees, and as an awkward middle-schoolers do, I did my best to stay as far off of his radar as possible. But of course, like out in the wild, the pack soon identifies its weakest link, as Coach Dees did when our class went for its first "Run around this track here four times, and don't stop for nothing" runs.
Off I went, hoofing it as best as my burgeoning body could muster, my little dust storm of sorts forming behind me and the other kids taking up the proverbial rear. The first lap was arduous on a number of fronts, though namely I found I was cramping. My legs were in pain, and my throat was dry as a nunnery.
"Get running, Cannain," I heard him shout. His voice raised higher when saying my last name, which I tried to ignore. I nodded in acknowledgment of his command and tried again to propel myself in what seemed like a completely futile experiment in human pain. I ran and ran, the minutes going by slower and slower as I rounded the final lap. When I was finished, my splendid coach started to walk away but turned to me and said, "Everyone could see ya running like a girl." He laughed and walked away as my face turned crimsom, wanting only to run now -- far and fast away.
And in strange ways, as I have been working out, I have had these early memories surface. My early experiences with working out, the negativity I felt, and the often-external rejection I felt when engaged in physical activity. And thus, there is a sense of panic that I sometimes feel, as I near the gym or Sweat360's facilties, and I must fight to let go of that emotion. As I let go, I have been grabbing onto a new identity, one formed in strength, determination, and focus. I have begun to see myself as an athete, a hard-working one, who gives his utmost for his own benefit. And as I do this, I find my strength increasing, and with that growth, I imagine myself running by Coach Dees, running strong and fast.
- Daniel
Great Meltdown tonight
I feel so much better! My pulls are getting better; I can particiapte and not feel bad. I really like our group and think that everyone is has something to offer each other. I want to tell Kili and Robert that I know you have alot going on, but know that you give each one of us special attention. THANK YOU! You two are so high energy and it helps propel us to the next exercise, next class and next good decision that we will make about what we put in our mouth. LOL...... Thank you! Thank you! Thank you!!!! I'm looking forward to a day off tomorrow. I have some Sample Wedding Albums to design. I hope everyone has a great evening and fantastic day tomorrow.
Tracy
Tracy
A Suggestion for Snacking
If you are crunched for time, try this little trick to avoid snacking: boil a good eight to ten eggs and keep them in your fridge for a quick snack. I have found that these are really helpful -- right before or after a work-out, or if I'm just having the munchies. Eggs are full of protein, low in carbs and calories, and just require a little salt and pepper, if you please.
-Daniel
-Daniel
I can do ANYTHING for six weeks!! :)
I am trying to post by using my phone because all computers at home have crashed! They are vital to my business but have figured out plan B and C and D.....this too shall pass :) I am excited to work out as a group tonight! The support and push from my Sweat360 buds has been great! I've been in more pain from sore muscles than I have in a looong time. Could that be because I haven't worked out in a loooong time. I know it will get better as I work through it and get in shape. Right?? When I started this class I knew it was going to be a challenge physically and mentally. It certainly has! The thing I keep repeating to myself from day one is "I can do ANYTHING for six weeks!" It has helped. Its not a fix all, but its helped me get through the tougher days. I'm guessing by the sixth week, the changes I'm making will then be a habit, not a struggle. Hope I'm not expecting too much. :) I'm glad I'll be seeing my Meltdown buddies tonight! --Lori
Working through the pain
I feel like I'm falling a part and I'm frustrated. I am working through things though. I want to thank everyone for their encouragement! I know I can't be the only one going through the pains of rebuilding a broken body. Can I use the I'm the oldest of the group as an excuse? LOL. Well after Robert about killed me with stretching my Hip Flexor at HiDef last night it fills better today (not 100%). Thank you Robert!!!!! I soaked the pains last night and just tried to relax, which is hard for me. I was disappointed with my Jenny Craig appointment; I was looking for a big loss! NOT!!!! My consultant wants to up my calories, which is scary for me because I want to loose not gain weight. Looking forward to tonight!
Tracy
Tracy
Tuesday, April 27, 2010
Some Truths
I know that it has only been a week, and that I should probably cut myself some slack, but here are some truths about how I'm feeling that is effecting my current performance in life.
1.) I have yet to do work outs or exercise outside of SWEAT360.
2.) I feel like I am falling off track with my diet.
3.) The amount of stress I have right now is making me feel like I can't breathe.
4.) I hate my job very very much.
5.) I love writing and the journal that SWEAT has provided for us is a big crutch for me right now.
6.) I realize that I have developed a habit of trying to hurry through everything that I do and to just get it over with.
Time.
What time? Where did it go?
There's so many things that I have now in a 'to do' list that any time I rty to focus on one, my mind goes totally blank. Especially when I am here at home.
Last night I had the final of an essay due by midnight that is hefty on my final grade. I spent four hours at New Seasons last night getting it done. On top of that, I had worked from 5:30a.m. to 12pm.
The day before I worked eight hours in the morning as well, luckily not as early. However when I got home my parents asked me to do a list of chores leaving no time to do my homework.
On Saturday after our workout in the morning I went home and got ready to be at work at 3. Then something very upsetting happened. At around 4pm a good friend I (used to) work with who is the one of the sweetest and most loving friends that I have was arrested for distribution. Yes, this is of course a dumbass thing. Everyone at work knew he was doing it, it was very obvious. This is why a detective had been watching him for a couple months until he could catch him in action. My friend came into the store with a look on his face that is unfamilar to me. He rushed to me and gave me a huge hug and a kiss on the cheek and said, "I'm going to jail for 5 years." What the hell was I supposed to say? What was I supposed to think? I did all that I could not to cry as he quickly told me what had happened and he rushed back outside. Of course you could think that a true friend wouldn't do something like this to the ones that they love, but he is a free spirited individual. It's just who he is. This has been very heavy on my heart. For me, being able to let this go and not let it bring me down is to mull it over until I have come to a conclusion of something like, it's for the better.
For now, the habit of hurrying through 'to do' lists that I create is going to have to slide. I know that it is important that things have good quality work, but realistically I don't currently have the time to put a lot of effort into one particular thing. Within the next two weeks, this will improve. I do not like the feeling of haste and I feel amazing when I know that I have done good quality work. But this is what I have for now. It's like settling for Sweet Tomatoes instead of Olive Garden. Even though I have never been to Olive Garden... ha ha.
I hate my job because I don't feel like I deserve the amount of money that I take home every week. I like hard labor. I enjoy pushing myself to the limits and proving to myself that I can do anything I want to. Sitting for two hours at a time waiting for customers isn't what I call 'earning your dollar'. What a derive from that when I am handed my pay check on Fridays is, "Here ya go. Thanks for looking like you do something when we all really know that you hardly do anything at all. Oh, and here's the tips that people gave you to congratulate you on getting up off your ass to serve them." The continuation of searching for a new job will be picked up again tomorrow morning. This is not morally okay with me anymore. It's insulting.
I am finding it hard to even breathe. I don't think that I have ever tried to balance taking on this many things at once that have so much significance to me, but I am doing the best that I can. I knew that when I signed up for meltdown it would be a tight fit into my schedule. I do feel guilty for not being able to completely grab the bull by the horns and that it puts me at a disadvantage, but hell will have to stop me from what I've started. I'm not going to give up.
In conclusion, wiritng all of this has let me take a deep breath. Now it's time to tackle the day.
1.) I have yet to do work outs or exercise outside of SWEAT360.
2.) I feel like I am falling off track with my diet.
3.) The amount of stress I have right now is making me feel like I can't breathe.
4.) I hate my job very very much.
5.) I love writing and the journal that SWEAT has provided for us is a big crutch for me right now.
6.) I realize that I have developed a habit of trying to hurry through everything that I do and to just get it over with.
Time.
What time? Where did it go?
There's so many things that I have now in a 'to do' list that any time I rty to focus on one, my mind goes totally blank. Especially when I am here at home.
Last night I had the final of an essay due by midnight that is hefty on my final grade. I spent four hours at New Seasons last night getting it done. On top of that, I had worked from 5:30a.m. to 12pm.
The day before I worked eight hours in the morning as well, luckily not as early. However when I got home my parents asked me to do a list of chores leaving no time to do my homework.
On Saturday after our workout in the morning I went home and got ready to be at work at 3. Then something very upsetting happened. At around 4pm a good friend I (used to) work with who is the one of the sweetest and most loving friends that I have was arrested for distribution. Yes, this is of course a dumbass thing. Everyone at work knew he was doing it, it was very obvious. This is why a detective had been watching him for a couple months until he could catch him in action. My friend came into the store with a look on his face that is unfamilar to me. He rushed to me and gave me a huge hug and a kiss on the cheek and said, "I'm going to jail for 5 years." What the hell was I supposed to say? What was I supposed to think? I did all that I could not to cry as he quickly told me what had happened and he rushed back outside. Of course you could think that a true friend wouldn't do something like this to the ones that they love, but he is a free spirited individual. It's just who he is. This has been very heavy on my heart. For me, being able to let this go and not let it bring me down is to mull it over until I have come to a conclusion of something like, it's for the better.
For now, the habit of hurrying through 'to do' lists that I create is going to have to slide. I know that it is important that things have good quality work, but realistically I don't currently have the time to put a lot of effort into one particular thing. Within the next two weeks, this will improve. I do not like the feeling of haste and I feel amazing when I know that I have done good quality work. But this is what I have for now. It's like settling for Sweet Tomatoes instead of Olive Garden. Even though I have never been to Olive Garden... ha ha.
I hate my job because I don't feel like I deserve the amount of money that I take home every week. I like hard labor. I enjoy pushing myself to the limits and proving to myself that I can do anything I want to. Sitting for two hours at a time waiting for customers isn't what I call 'earning your dollar'. What a derive from that when I am handed my pay check on Fridays is, "Here ya go. Thanks for looking like you do something when we all really know that you hardly do anything at all. Oh, and here's the tips that people gave you to congratulate you on getting up off your ass to serve them." The continuation of searching for a new job will be picked up again tomorrow morning. This is not morally okay with me anymore. It's insulting.
I am finding it hard to even breathe. I don't think that I have ever tried to balance taking on this many things at once that have so much significance to me, but I am doing the best that I can. I knew that when I signed up for meltdown it would be a tight fit into my schedule. I do feel guilty for not being able to completely grab the bull by the horns and that it puts me at a disadvantage, but hell will have to stop me from what I've started. I'm not going to give up.
In conclusion, wiritng all of this has let me take a deep breath. Now it's time to tackle the day.
Sweet Tooth
Why is it this week that I keep having some MAJOR sweet cravings??? Last week I was so good and didn't even think about sweets, but this week is different. I feel like everywhere I look there is a cookie, cake, cupcake, candy, you name it. It's only Tuesday and I am NOT giving in.
I found that after having my second child a few months ago, I gained a giant sweet tooth. I don't know if this was brought on by breastfeeding or what. But it is there and I fight with it about every day.
My daughters 3rd birthday is on Saturday and guess what we are having...cupcakes! I have to work extra hard this week in the slight chance I breakdown and have a part of one.
There are no sweets in my house. This is the first time in a long time there hasn't been any type of baked good just hanging around. Even my refridgerator is full of healthy eats!
It's been a crazy week so far and it's only Tuesday. Just feels like so much going on and I am a little overwhelmed with how I'm going to get everything done and workout. I am so looking forward to class tomorrow night so I can work through some of my frustrations, road blocks and hiccups! Week 2 is definitely more challenging on all levels, mental and physical!
-Jen
I found that after having my second child a few months ago, I gained a giant sweet tooth. I don't know if this was brought on by breastfeeding or what. But it is there and I fight with it about every day.
My daughters 3rd birthday is on Saturday and guess what we are having...cupcakes! I have to work extra hard this week in the slight chance I breakdown and have a part of one.
There are no sweets in my house. This is the first time in a long time there hasn't been any type of baked good just hanging around. Even my refridgerator is full of healthy eats!
It's been a crazy week so far and it's only Tuesday. Just feels like so much going on and I am a little overwhelmed with how I'm going to get everything done and workout. I am so looking forward to class tomorrow night so I can work through some of my frustrations, road blocks and hiccups! Week 2 is definitely more challenging on all levels, mental and physical!
-Jen
Monday, April 26, 2010
I'm feeling old
I'm feeling old and broken down. I have a pull in my lower abs on my left side that bother me when I do sit ups and now I have pull in my hip right side area that hurts when I jump, kick or squats. I was getting out of my husband's car tonight an had to lift my leg into and out of the car. I am feeling a bit frustrated and feel like these will slow down my progress. This is Fear
No matter what; I am still going to move forward. I refuse to let this stop me or slow me down. I am looking forward to shooting a wedding in Chicago the 4th of July weekend and feeling fit and firm in some new summer clothes!!! My second driving force is a wedding that I am doing in Eugene for a classmate, where I will be seeing people that I haven't seen in 30 years. I am going to feel good and confident and have a great time. This is the reason I'm not going to let fear win!
Above is the difference between a lie and the truth; we can drive away our fears with truth or believe the lies that keep us bound to our fears.
P.S. I was in kickboxing today and wittnessed a miracle. My friend Carl; kicking butt and taking names. A couple of years ago Carl was waiting for a liver transplant to save his life, now he is giving me courage to suck it up and drive forward. Thank you God for Carl!
Tracy
No matter what; I am still going to move forward. I refuse to let this stop me or slow me down. I am looking forward to shooting a wedding in Chicago the 4th of July weekend and feeling fit and firm in some new summer clothes!!! My second driving force is a wedding that I am doing in Eugene for a classmate, where I will be seeing people that I haven't seen in 30 years. I am going to feel good and confident and have a great time. This is the reason I'm not going to let fear win!
Above is the difference between a lie and the truth; we can drive away our fears with truth or believe the lies that keep us bound to our fears.
P.S. I was in kickboxing today and wittnessed a miracle. My friend Carl; kicking butt and taking names. A couple of years ago Carl was waiting for a liver transplant to save his life, now he is giving me courage to suck it up and drive forward. Thank you God for Carl!
Tracy
Week 1 Down: Reflections
Some reflections I've had over the past week-plus.
We have completed Week 1, and I have made the following observations:
1. The work-outs are definitely helping, and I feel strongly committed to doing my utmost when engaged in those hours of Sweat.
2. The nutrition is going to be my biggest challenge. I realize, I really enjoy food! I love eating! I derive pleasure from the act of eating, drinking, and consuming in general. Thus, I have much work to do to control my intake. I am responsible for what I eat.
3. My body is changing, growing, and improving, and that takes energy. I am at once tearing apart and rebuilding the equipment known as my body. This process requires me to be aware of it and to realize its impact on those around me.
4. I have never liked sports, doing them, competing in them, or having anything maringinally related to them. I have had major epiphanies working out, memories of childhood fresh and alive. I have realized that I actually have some healing to do in this area of my life.
5. I am super excited to be doing this program: it gives tremendous focus and consequential validation of how important my health is. So many years of my life, I have done major disservices to my health. Now is not such a time.
There is much to do, and I am excited to be part of this life-changing group. Cheers, Everyone, and happy Monday. Looking forward to Kick-Boxing tomorrow!
- Daniel
We have completed Week 1, and I have made the following observations:
1. The work-outs are definitely helping, and I feel strongly committed to doing my utmost when engaged in those hours of Sweat.
2. The nutrition is going to be my biggest challenge. I realize, I really enjoy food! I love eating! I derive pleasure from the act of eating, drinking, and consuming in general. Thus, I have much work to do to control my intake. I am responsible for what I eat.
3. My body is changing, growing, and improving, and that takes energy. I am at once tearing apart and rebuilding the equipment known as my body. This process requires me to be aware of it and to realize its impact on those around me.
4. I have never liked sports, doing them, competing in them, or having anything maringinally related to them. I have had major epiphanies working out, memories of childhood fresh and alive. I have realized that I actually have some healing to do in this area of my life.
5. I am super excited to be doing this program: it gives tremendous focus and consequential validation of how important my health is. So many years of my life, I have done major disservices to my health. Now is not such a time.
There is much to do, and I am excited to be part of this life-changing group. Cheers, Everyone, and happy Monday. Looking forward to Kick-Boxing tomorrow!
- Daniel
Sunday, April 25, 2010
starting my life today
Getting my life on track, one day at a time. Felt like it started for the first time today. I still have much to do. Have been following my menu, did my sit-ups, and i look forward to 5:30a.m. see you there! -Alicia Walden
The day of Rest
I rested today. I also promised myself that I would stay active or at least get some form of activity in. So here is my activity for today a little lawnmowing (that little blue speck is me) never hurt anyone unless the did alot of pushups. LOL! I am looking forward to tomorrows kickboxing. Hope everyone had a successful weekend.
Tracy
Saturday, April 24, 2010
Okay, I do have more in me than that...
I'm not sure where to start.
Right now in my life I have college on Teusdays and Thursdays from 8am to 5pm. Every other day I work to pay for my phone bill and save up for school. Add in meltdown and sprinkle on all the homework, I don't know how I'm doing this. all I know is that I'm survivng and pushing myself pretty far.
This morning I really pushed myself in the work out. I had somewhat of an epiphany last night through a dream. Every night I dream, whether it be good, bad, or neither. However last night's dream I'll never forget. So here it is.
4:35a.m.
Enlightening, encouraging, relieving, and honest, was the dream I have awoken from.
I was in a large group of girls, my age (which is weird for me. Like, REALLY weird). I could tell you that by the feelings of maturity I had in this dream I was about 22. We were all auditioning for a lead role in a movie. A dream that I have had in my mind for while, but have never dreampt. It was extremely lovely weather and we were all outside auditioning for this role in what was going to be a huge film (No details of the movie or title were given). As it neared my turn to show the director and crew what I can do, I had no nerves. All of us girls were wearing white shirts and jeans. Our hair was done nicely according to what would best flaunt our personalities. No brunettes, only red heads, blondes, and strawberry-blondes. Since it was late summer, my freckles on my nose had come out of hiding and my hair was down. Not down and straight like I always do, but down and curly. In fact, right before I auditioned I took a moment to curl some loose strands. Because of these factors, I was shocked as an observer of my dream. These are all things that I never do: wear white shirts in fear that I look like a blimp, wear my hair down curly because it looks ridiculous, feel comfortable in a large group of girls.
My name had been called and it was now my turn to strut my stuff. As I stood from where I sat in the lush green grass, the girl next to me nudged my arm. "Don't forget to blush, they eat that up." I nodded in response as though to say, "Sister, the don't know what's comin'."
This is all so great to me for multiple reasons. One, this is a dream where I am pursuing something I know will always be in the back of my mind. In the process of executing it, not only did I feel like nothing could stop me, but I and everyone else for that matter, knew that. It was an aura I had seldom created for when I am so determined. In order to pursue a dream of this proportion, I need full confidence in myself and to overcome my bashfulness as well as how self-conscious I can get. I need to be proud of who I am and to prove to others that if they want great efforts and productivity done by a great worker, I'm the one they want. In my dream I had already obtained and honed this skill. I was using it very wisely. It felt so powerful and amazing. So why is this all relevant?
I woke up with the feeling that it will be mine. Just within a matter of time.
This is only a fragment of everything that rushes through my mind every day. However, SWEAT360 is not. I have made it part of my life, just as I would buying groceries. One of the best decisions that I have ever made for myself.
-Jamie.
Right now in my life I have college on Teusdays and Thursdays from 8am to 5pm. Every other day I work to pay for my phone bill and save up for school. Add in meltdown and sprinkle on all the homework, I don't know how I'm doing this. all I know is that I'm survivng and pushing myself pretty far.
This morning I really pushed myself in the work out. I had somewhat of an epiphany last night through a dream. Every night I dream, whether it be good, bad, or neither. However last night's dream I'll never forget. So here it is.
4:35a.m.
Enlightening, encouraging, relieving, and honest, was the dream I have awoken from.
I was in a large group of girls, my age (which is weird for me. Like, REALLY weird). I could tell you that by the feelings of maturity I had in this dream I was about 22. We were all auditioning for a lead role in a movie. A dream that I have had in my mind for while, but have never dreampt. It was extremely lovely weather and we were all outside auditioning for this role in what was going to be a huge film (No details of the movie or title were given). As it neared my turn to show the director and crew what I can do, I had no nerves. All of us girls were wearing white shirts and jeans. Our hair was done nicely according to what would best flaunt our personalities. No brunettes, only red heads, blondes, and strawberry-blondes. Since it was late summer, my freckles on my nose had come out of hiding and my hair was down. Not down and straight like I always do, but down and curly. In fact, right before I auditioned I took a moment to curl some loose strands. Because of these factors, I was shocked as an observer of my dream. These are all things that I never do: wear white shirts in fear that I look like a blimp, wear my hair down curly because it looks ridiculous, feel comfortable in a large group of girls.
My name had been called and it was now my turn to strut my stuff. As I stood from where I sat in the lush green grass, the girl next to me nudged my arm. "Don't forget to blush, they eat that up." I nodded in response as though to say, "Sister, the don't know what's comin'."
This is all so great to me for multiple reasons. One, this is a dream where I am pursuing something I know will always be in the back of my mind. In the process of executing it, not only did I feel like nothing could stop me, but I and everyone else for that matter, knew that. It was an aura I had seldom created for when I am so determined. In order to pursue a dream of this proportion, I need full confidence in myself and to overcome my bashfulness as well as how self-conscious I can get. I need to be proud of who I am and to prove to others that if they want great efforts and productivity done by a great worker, I'm the one they want. In my dream I had already obtained and honed this skill. I was using it very wisely. It felt so powerful and amazing. So why is this all relevant?
I woke up with the feeling that it will be mine. Just within a matter of time.
This is only a fragment of everything that rushes through my mind every day. However, SWEAT360 is not. I have made it part of my life, just as I would buying groceries. One of the best decisions that I have ever made for myself.
-Jamie.
Today was a push
I had a BAD DAY yesterday. Today"s workout was a push. I signed up for more punishment and looking forward to it. I had a cry this morning a meltdown and I'm not a cryer but needed it! Thank you Kili and Robert for helping all of us. I do really appreciate you. (excuse my spelling). I an going to soak my sore muscles and bones! Have lunch and clear my head. Thank you Jamie for helping to push me!
Tracy
Tracy
1 Week Down
I can't believe today marks 1 week into the challenge. I've been more active this week than I have in a VERY LONG time. I am actually looking forward to going to the gym, going to SWEAT classes and really enjoyed the Hip Hop Caberet last night. I guess I realized that I was doing the same thing at the gym and I was totally bored, therefore I just never went. It's good to see that we can incorporate a variety of activities into our week and still get a good workout! Looking forward to a hard workout this morning.
-Jen
-Jen
Friday, April 23, 2010
A Hard Day!
Today I felt like I spun my wheel. I was busy and couldn't get anything done... I'm a controller and couldn't get anything under control today. I felt like..... Hell! I did eat right but felt like eating wrong. I'm not a cryer but felt like crying (I didn't). It is now 9:34 PM and I didn't get any exercise done today. So I am now going to get on the treadmill and then I'm going to do some squats and lunges as well as a little weights.
I am excited that I am going to see the meltdown group tomorrow and I am going to push, push, push myself hard. I am starting to finally not feel sore and now I miss it! I wanted to loose good this week so when I weigh in on Tuesday I feel like I'm on a roll.
See ya tomorrow!
Tracy Coggin
I am excited that I am going to see the meltdown group tomorrow and I am going to push, push, push myself hard. I am starting to finally not feel sore and now I miss it! I wanted to loose good this week so when I weigh in on Tuesday I feel like I'm on a roll.
See ya tomorrow!
Tracy Coggin
Thursday, April 22, 2010
Saturday, April 17, 2010
Fantastic Start!
Today we kicked off our SWEAT360 Spring Meltdown Challenge. And what a start is was!
The SWEAT360 Spring Meltdown Challenge is a boot camp series designed to take de-conditioned participants through a 6 week journey of physical and mental progress. Through physical activity, nutrition, journal-ling and weekly tasks participants literally have the power to change their lives. As well as ours! We have the privilege of witnessing their journeys. Just in the introductions alone we saw strength, commitment, vulnerability and power! Thanks to all our new family members that joined today! Onwards and upwards!!
Kili and Robert
The SWEAT360 Spring Meltdown Challenge is a boot camp series designed to take de-conditioned participants through a 6 week journey of physical and mental progress. Through physical activity, nutrition, journal-ling and weekly tasks participants literally have the power to change their lives. As well as ours! We have the privilege of witnessing their journeys. Just in the introductions alone we saw strength, commitment, vulnerability and power! Thanks to all our new family members that joined today! Onwards and upwards!!
Kili and Robert
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